Monday, 2 November 2026

๐“›๐“ธ๐“ฟ๐“ฎ ๐“˜๐“ผ ๐“œ๐”‚ ๐“๐“ช๐“ฝ๐“พ๐“ป๐“ฎ.

 ๐“˜ ๐“›๐“ธ๐“ฟ๐“ฎ ๐“จ๐“ธ๐“พ, & ๐“œ๐”‚ ๐“ฑ๐“ฎ๐“ช๐“ป๐“ฝ ๐“ผ๐“ฒ๐“ท๐“ฐ๐“ผ ๐“ฝ๐“ฑ๐“ฒ๐“ผ ๐“ผ๐“ธ๐“ท๐“ฐ, ๐“ฏ๐“ธ๐“ป ๐”‚๐“ธ๐“พ ๐“ถ๐”‚ ๐“ฏ๐“ป๐“ฒ๐“ฎ๐“ท๐“ญ. ๐“—๐“ช๐“ท๐“ฐ ๐“ฒ๐“ท ๐“ฝ๐“ฑ๐“ฎ๐“ป๐“ฎ ๐“ช๐“ท๐“ญ ๐“ด๐“ท๐“ธ๐”€ ๐“ฝ๐“ฑ๐“ช๐“ฝ ๐“˜'๐“ถ ๐“ฑ๐“ฎ๐“ป๐“ฎ ๐“ฏ๐“ธ๐“ป ๐”‚๐“ธ๐“พ ๐“ฝ๐“ฒ๐“ถ๐“ฎ ๐“ช๐“ฏ๐“ฝ๐“ฎ๐“ป ๐“ฝ๐“ฒ๐“ถ๐“ฎ.  

No, I'm not in love with you. I'm in Love with all good people. This is the problem Empaths have with people: we give love, we have love, we know love intimately & spiritually, emotionally and constantly. I'm not in love with you; I love you like I love and care about everyone who is good.

The way I write is with Love;
I express Love, I give love; that is me, it's my support for others, and it's my support for myself. My love is not about sex; it's not about having a boyfriend or girlfriend; it's not love only right now because you did something for me.

Love is not exclusive; it's inclusive.

An online search will tell you that, "Inclusive love encompasses a broader spectrum, allowing for diverse connections and experiences, rather than being limited to a single person."

"Love can be expressed in various forms, including affection, care, and selflessness, which can be shared with multiple individuals", and is ongoing; not limited to one day, one afternoon, or one thing someone does for you.

"Philosophically, love is viewed as a fundamental structure of existence, shaping our relationships and connections with others." With me, it's my connection to myself, and others, and animals, and the environment, and without getting to spiritual on you, the spirit world, the energy, the force behind my empathy and power.

"The concept of love as relationality emphasizes that love is not just a feeling but a relational force that binds individuals together." But only if the individuals are not apathetic in nature, and ignorant in experience, knowledge or awareness.

Awareness of others' feelings & emotions, awareness of myself, and awareness of my surroundings is something I don't leave home without.

"Thus, the statement reflects a comprehensive understanding of love as an inclusive and expansive concept."

"Inclusive means making sure everyone," everyone, even narcissists when you meet them for the first time before they start with the red flags, "feels welcomed; respected, supported, and able to participate equally, no matter their background, abilities, identity, beliefs or circumstances." No threats, no accusations, no gaslighting.

"The term "exclusive" simply means something that is not shared or available to one person or group." Narcissists don't share emotions, not heartfelt, deep, emotional love or sympathy. It's like hanging out with the manly-man boys: no drama, no crying, no emotional attachment, just quick fun, easygoing pleasures and then bye-bye. See you next week.

Now me being Gay, is another story,
and makes the whole thing even more exasperating for me when I have a manly-man straight man as a friend; that cannot accept all this that I've written you, with emotional attachment in front of me and the power of empathy sensitivity and love inside me.

Straight manly men think I sound like I'm in love with them when I show
I CARE THROUGH MY LOVE... or my writing, or my gifts, or my support, etc. Excluding those who understand, of course, but the ones that don't; they can't understand that; the whole empathic expression of love and care and support is just that, love and care and support.

If I don't love good people, while I feel they need some care or support, why would I care and support them? Do you support something that you don't love? You need to love what you support; you need to love who you support, or your support is not free of a personal agenda. 

Love comes with no agenda; I support without agenda. I don't need anything in return, but appreciation, kindness and grace.

I need kindness and support too, and when I get it from someone, I love that someone. I love that someone and tell them. Even if it's just from them listening to my problems or talking with me in my loneliness. 

Or fighting for others who can't fight, or speaking up against Trump for the good of all, harming none. If you help a homeless person, they're grateful, and some of them say I love you, bless you. Do you stop them from saying that? No. That's not nice? Do you stop them from crying? That's not nice; it's rude and dismissive of their feelings.

If a narcissist is being rude and dismissive after the giving of my support and sharing of my stories, and caring for their well-being, then do they deserve my support? No. They don't have to duplicate me, but they must be
thankful, in words, in action. Or I may feel like I supported the wrong person again. Someone who says, "don't cry; you're making me cry" is stopping me and dismissing my feelings for theirs.

And that's what makes me different when I'm a friend or even an acquaintance of others. I'm thankful for them; in words, in action, in gifts, in progressive action or in telling them that they are loved by me, and allowing them to feel what they feel and express what they express without stopping them.

Which means they have no fear with me, no threat with me; I just want their happiness, and they can trust me. I don't need something in return, because I already get what uplifts me in return when I support others.

Don't let that thought of "omg he's Gay so maybe he's in love with me", "maybe he wants sex with me" or "maybe he wants something of me" stop my loving support for you.
Everyone needs support, but if it's not coming from Love, where does it come from?

It takes over what little connection there is, and ruins a potentially good friendship. It's also homophobic, femmephobic, and sexist. It's a common mistake straight men make with me, because they've never met anyone like me. And they never will, which means it's their only chance to make me a genuine friend. Even if they're online and I never meet them.

Love keeps me alive, even if it's coming from me just supporting others online. I get joy from supporting and speaking to others, but they get suspicious. So when I talk to someone, or chat with someone, I appreciate it, and I'm feeling much love, but it's not what you think;
it's simply LOVE.

Instead of never saying it to you, I say it whether you like it or not. It's powerful, it's helpful, it feels good for all parties involved. ACCEPT IT, you're worth it. Real friends love; if you stop people from expressing love, then you will receive less love in this world.

Narcissistic people stop my love for them, but people who don't know better also do it. Don't stop my expression of love if you're straight cause you think I'm in Love with you; just be glad another person loves you in this terrible world filled with apathetic Narcissistic people who don't love you but call you their friend.

Google Empath, google HSP, come and read more about me, 
and you'll see, ๐“›๐“ธ๐“ฟ๐“ฎ ๐“ฒ๐“ผ ๐“ถ๐”‚ ๐“ท๐“ช๐“ฝ๐“พ๐“ป๐“ฎ

It's okay; I'm used to it. I am not just a gay person; I am more than that, as you can see. There's good and bad in every kind of person. I know a good or bad person when I'm with them or talk to them; from how they speak to me, the feelings they show me; how I feel their energy and how much gaslighting or toxic positivity is coming out of them to dismiss what I'm feeling or saying.

Bad, of course, means narcissistic people to me; or psychopaths, or just dumb-dumbs. Anyone apathetic, I see it, feel it, and hate it.

Apathetic people with no feelings and no emotions are everywhere, dismissing others' feelings; interrupting and being rude to others, hurting people without caring that they do whichever way they do, to say the least.

Many think they're good people; they think they're trying to be a good person, but how good are they when they're apathetic all the time, thinking about themselves and how they feel most of the time, not sharing emotions, not helping others in need, and not being emotionally supportive to anyone.

They think they are, but they're not allowing expressions of love & empathy because they can't show it in return; they're not as much of a good person as they think they are.

So I try to teach people who and how narcissists are, and how not to be like them. One way is to show my love right away when I feel appreciation or a thankful heart with them;
I LOVE THEM. I don't love how they are or how they make me feel; I love them and it's too late. I can't shut off my love for others as they can.

I know and feel people, and I know who they are and what they are, after talking with them. It's a receiving of energy, with my awareness of how they conduct themselves with me. Good person, narcissist, dumb dumb, evil, or just ignorant, we all have different energies.

I'm always here for everyone, but when it gets completely draining to be with them, or talk to them, in perfect love and perfect trust, while they show perfect red flags constantly. I stop. Or I blow up on them.

I become even rude and sharp with my language, and they don't like it, and then they resent me. But I'm just giving them back the rudeness I feel from them, with my emotion. If they're complaining, I let them know I'm the one who should complain; if they have a problem with me, I let them know I'm the one with the problem with them.

So now that I've explained myself yet again, I love you. I could say I love you all day to all my fans and readers and followers, not to mention favourite independent news-reporter heroes. I don't love you in parts; I simply love all of you. What do you want me to say, "don't take it personally"? That's absurd.

When I'm hurt by people that I love, the hurt is deep because I've loved you. So I tell you, I tell you I love you, and I tell you, you hurt me.

And aren't you lucky that another person genuinely loves you, because I can't find love today from anyone, not even if you paid them.

No one has told me they love me since my beloved and I were together for 21+ years, and every day. Love for me came once in my lifetime, after Mom & Dad's love, of course, so I don't expect to receive Love again.

I simply have no choice but to tell those I love that I love them, without anyone telling me they love me.

Luckily, I was born to love, so I have an abundance of love for people, and many can't handle it, don't want it, and just stay away from it, or me. They want what I have; they want what I can do, they want my smarts or intelligence to teach them stuff; or they want how I make them feel, but my love? It's too much.

My Love is Empathic Spiritual Love, of reciprocal genuine emotion that is forever.
Because when I love one who is deserving, it is forever. So that's where self-love comes in handy, which is another story.

Thank you for taking the time today to read my blog, and don't forget I'm here for you, because yes,
I love you. Don't know you, but I love you; how can I not, when you spent so long reading everything I wrote and didn't comment anything narcissistic. 

Wednesday, 28 October 2026

@jullzwolf_poetry

 

@jullzwolf_poetry Author, Researcher, and Coach. Publications: Code of the Empath, Code of the Narcissist: Your Path to Recovery and Awakening from Narcissistic Abuse.

Tuesday, 27 October 2026

I’m So Fucking Tired of Everything Being a Red Flag

I’m So Fucking Tired of Everything Being a Red Flag 

by Pelle Martens

We're getting better at spotting red flags and worse at recognizing good people. - Read it all on Substack

"Someone had a difficult childhood? Unresolved trauma. Someone struggles to express their feelings? Avoidant attachment. Someone becomes defensive during an argument? Apparently we’re dating a narcissist."



Fucking Miserable

I'm so fucking miserable I hate that guy in the mirror now, he's so lonely and depressing.

Friday, 23 October 2026

๐’ฉ๐‘œ๐’ท๐‘œ๐’น๐“Ž ๐’ž๐’ถ๐“‡๐‘’๐“ˆ ๐’ฐ๐“ƒ๐“‰๐’พ๐“ ๐’ด๐‘œ๐“Š ๐’Ÿ๐’พ๐‘’

 ๐’ฉ๐‘œ๐’ท๐‘œ๐’น๐“Ž ๐’ž๐’ถ๐“‡๐‘’๐“ˆ ๐’ฐ๐“ƒ๐“‰๐’พ๐“ ๐’ด๐‘œ๐“Š ๐’Ÿ๐’พ๐‘’




๐ผ'๐“‚ ๐’ž๐’ฝ๐‘œ๐‘œ๐“ˆ๐’พ๐“ƒ๐‘” ๐’ซ๐‘’๐’ถ๐’ธ๐‘’ ๐’ฏ๐‘œ๐’น๐’ถ๐“Ž

๐ผ'๐“‚ ๐’ž๐’ฝ๐‘œ๐‘œ๐“ˆ๐’พ๐“ƒ๐‘” ๐’ซ๐‘’๐’ถ๐’ธ๐‘’ ๐’ฏ๐‘œ๐’น๐’ถ๐“Ž

We give them a hard time?

Narcissists and Narcissistic people think we give them a hard time, 
doesn't that make you crazy? 

         It makes me nuts when after causing me a lot of stress and anxiety (I'm always completely frazzled when people like this are here); with reacting to their stupid comments; criticisms, interruptions, questions, ignorant accusations, backwards and upside down expressions and more (while tired and hungry with a hurting foot and back), they say to me "you give me a hard time".

         Well victims of narcissism, do we give them a hard time? Yes, we should, because they need to know how to be, when they're with us at least. If they don't want a hard time, they should shut up and listen most of the time. Hearing and considering change in their character,  for the good of all while harming none of course, but they can only worry about themselves, so the good of all doesn't matter to them.

         If they don't want a hard time with you, they should stop giving you a hard time. I have this new person in my life that gives me a hard time on every visit. He visits me for 10 - 20 minutes when he comes over, 2 or 3 times a week while or after his work. It's a narcissistic person, just ignorant of that fact and all the facts about Narcissism, and how it all bothers or hurts everyone he come in contact with.

         He tries to teach his children how empathy is good, but doesn't show empathy when he should. He tries to advise his children how being kind and nice and polite is good etiquette that you need, yet shows a lack of etiquette & grace most of the time. 

         He says he's not like that, he doesn't do empathy and etiquette and sensitivity and bla bla bla, he's too old bla BLA BLA. He wants to teach the kids how it's good to to meet people with empathy, and to give empathy back, and that he's not like that, but wants them to have people in their life not like him.

         Good, but terrible, so I wanna help him. And then,,  "why do you feed the animals Ari when they're wild animals?" You make them lazy. AND "Why don't you just keep living here," (while I need to move asap, waiting for a buyer), "you just have to make it work." 

"NO NARCISSIST, I NEED TO MAKE YOU WORK. 
JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP!" IS WHAT I WANNA SAY NOW. 

         He may respect his own family, but he's still the same to them. If he's unrespectful to you, then he's unrespectful to them. Narcissists weather malignant or outrageous, they don't see this, but their family sees it, and keeps it a secret. 

         Cause without knowing about Narcissism & gradual abuse, they don't know the power of Empathy & gradual healing. They think it's a bunch of issues bothering them with the narcissist, but it's only one issue,, Narcissism and how they won't make any effort to change.

         So, I responded to his 1 sentence email today. Ya I got an email from him with words, after he went home and thought of everything I said. Just kidding he thought about nothing but himself, saying to me "You give me a hard time today". Not sorry about today; not thank you for caring about me today, not i love the gifts you gave me, not I wanna be a better person for my kids will you help me?. Nothing, just "you gave me a hard time today". 

  • ===@=====@==

         So I responded, and before reading my response, grab your drink or snack cause it's a big one. Hopefully it'll lift you to a place of confirmation and power to take back control of yourself, back from the narcissistic friend or family surrender to their narcissism. 

         Obviously no-contact is the best, for those suffering, but I've been suffering for so long, i'm now desperate for connection & communication of any kind, with anyone older than 55, even though their taking advantage of me and my beautiful loving empathetically sensitive and giving nature.

  • ===@=====@==
"Ari you gave me a hard time today (sad emoji). 

You say that, but after you gave Me, a hard time. It's when I give you advice on being a good person, after behaving like a bad one, that you say I give you a hard time. Cause it's hard for you I know. 

You see my reaction and you can't believe it, but it's true and you should respect it but you don't. 

If you did, you would not think of YOU YOU YOU and say I gave YOU a hard time, you would think of me, and say "sorry I give you a hard time". 

I deserve a hug, but not that? 

If I can't stop you, advise you, and help you, then I let you,, continue to abuse people this way. I will let you if you want, but you won't be able to abuse me with 10 minutes in a 20 minute visit again.

Yes it's abuse after I prepare for your visit with special gifts and Cuisine for you; and you're using reverse psychology, where you're projecting onto others your badness - with me?.

AND you see you make me crazy 1st, because you see you make me spend the whole time defending and explaining myself to you, interrupting me alot.. 

That's anxiety ridden narcissistic reactionary abuse. You're abusing me and making me suffer alone with my own feelings inside. You do this to others as well, with this way of you I'm talking about.

 For your victims that you treat badly; when they let it all out through frantic emotional anxiety, that's the result of the abuse part,, and then telling them they gave you a hard time?, while seeing how you gave them a hard time is your goodbye? That's your respect for them?

Nothing I say that is constructive criticism penetrates into the part of your brain that you say has respect for me? 

You see how you can appear fake and narcissistic? Selfish, unaware, not smart, just a clown, a fool? Is that what you want in Canada?  

Is that your "thank you for everything"?. It's fucked up, which makes you appear fucked up to others. You turn it all around and say I gave you a hard time? .

That's called a silent DARVO (Deny, Attack, Reverse Victim Offender), but easily put: Self Projection,, and people like me can see you do that. We know you're projecting, because you're a hard person giving a hard time to people, and not stopping. 

You must stop, and only I can help you, but I won't if you wont try to stop. And if you don't stop, is it pleasurable to hurt me? 

Cause if so, you do this to everyone and I don't like it. Neither does your wife, your daughter and your son. 

If you ask me for advice with them, but you consider my criticism of you a hard time, then I can't give you advice, because I have to point out your badness. 

You're a cutie pie mister, but you're narcissistically bad & crazy & hyperactive & more that makes you look like a freak.

Traits and beliefs of Manners, Respect, Etiquette, Morals, Integrity and connecting with good people (to say the least) are an integral part of Good People's Rules of normality. 

To live as a good person, you must act at least acceptable via these embedded traits and beliefs. Not like my narcissistic siblings, as you remind me of them while I'm with you (which is red flag after red flag). And not like Trump who shows all the time all the traits of a disgusting human piece of shit Narcissist. 

You could have said to me, "Thank you for all that", "I will try to remember". and wow what a nice tray of treats you made me". 

You can't say you respect me, and act without respect, it's not believable (as is a hug from a man who doesn't hug), people will not believe you, if they don't already.

YOU GAVE ME A HARD TIME YESTERDAY, I GAVE YOU MY REACTION TO YOUR ABUSIVE BEHAVIOR WITH ME. Maybe you can start with remembering that.

WORDS, ACCUSATIONS, TESTS AND INTERRUPTIONS AT EVERY VISIT IS ABUSE. KNOW THIS, PONDER ON IT, AND MAKE SOME DEDICATED CHANGES.

(keep this email to help you fucking remember mister)

I'll help you only if you let me.

Love ari

PS: Have a great day off.

Thursday, 22 October 2026

เฆ”ৣ This symbol is anti-Narcissist.

 This " เฆ”ৣ "  is a symbol i've been using with love, so I wanted to know more about it. I asked my Bing Search: "This " เฆ”ৣ "  is a symbol i've been using with love, i hope it doesn't mean something negative?"

It came back with the image below on another linked page, but I took it and I edited, at an online editing place, that I've used for as long as I've been online,, after it told me this;

and it's when I do stuff like this, that brings me back to reality, that I'm not the crazy one, and i'm not the narcissist, THEY ARE. And they are freaks, they just don't realize they appear as one. Until they meet someone like me that tells them they do. If I don't tell them ahead of time that they sound like a fool. 

When I saw the picture above, I thought to myself "self I thought" you gotta tell your narcissistically abused victims that read your blog, how making something artfull, helps to heal the soulfull.

Art will always set my negative emotions free from being bottled up in me, while music always lets me be. In perfect love and perfect trust, Empathy Is the Key. For the good of all harming none, so mote it be. Ps. Can you recite that with me?

๐ŸŒˆ❣️๐ŸŒน๐ŸŒบ

Wednesday, 21 October 2026

"๐”๐๐๐„๐‹๐ˆ๐„๐•๐€๐๐‹๐„ ๐๐€๐‘๐‚๐ˆ๐’๐’๐ˆ๐’๐“"

 "๐“๐‡๐ˆ๐’ ๐”๐๐๐„๐‹๐ˆ๐„๐•๐€๐๐‹๐„ ๐๐€๐‘๐‚๐ˆ๐’๐’๐ˆ๐’๐“ 

WHO ๐‚๐€๐ ๐‚๐‡๐€๐๐†๐„ ๐“๐‡๐„ ๐–๐Ž๐‘๐‹๐ƒ." 

๐–๐„ ๐Œ๐”๐’๐“ ๐’๐“๐Ž๐ ๐“๐‡๐ˆ๐’. 

Sunday, 11 October 2026

๐ŸชฉMy Music ๐ŸŽถMy Frequency๐ŸŽš️

 ¸๐Ÿชฉ๐ŸŽš️¸♬·¯·♪·¯·♫¸¸๐ŸŽถ ๐“˜๐“ฝ ๐“ฏ๐“ฎ๐“ฎ๐“ญ๐“ผ ๐“ถ๐”‚ ๐“ผ๐“ธ๐“พ๐“ต, ๐“˜๐“ฝ ๐“ฏ๐“ฎ๐“ฎ๐“ญ๐“ผ ๐“ถ๐”‚ ๐“ฑ๐“ฎ๐“ช๐“ป๐“ฝ. ๐“˜๐“ฝ ๐“ฏ๐“ฎ๐“ฎ๐“ญ๐“ผ ๐“ถ๐”‚ ๐“ฏ๐“ป๐“ฎ๐“บ๐“พ๐“ฎ๐“ท๐“ฌ๐”‚, ๐“ข๐“ธ ๐“˜'๐“ต๐“ต ๐“ท๐“ฎ๐“ฟ๐“ฎ๐“ป ๐“ฏ๐“ช๐“ต๐“ต ๐“ช๐“น๐“ช๐“ป๐“ฝ.๐ŸŽถ¸¸♫·¯·♪¸♩·¯·♬¸๐ŸŽš️๐Ÿชฉ¸

Sunday, 4 October 2026

҉๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿ‘ปH҉҉E҉҉L҉҉L҉҉O҉ ҉O҉҉C҉҉T҉҉O҉҉B҉҉E҉҉R҉๐Ÿ‘ป๐Ÿ™€

҉๐Ÿ˜ฑH҉҉E҉҉L҉҉L҉҉O҉ ҉O҉҉C҉҉T҉҉O҉҉B҉҉E҉҉R҉๐Ÿ™€ 

โฑง₳₱₱ษŽ ๐Ÿญ₵₳₦ฤษŽ ษ†₳₮ล‚₦₲๐Ÿฌ 

& ๐Ÿ‘ป๐ŸŽƒ๐Œ๐„๐‘๐‘๐˜ ๐‡๐€๐‹๐‹๐Ž๐–๐„๐„๐๐Ÿ‘น๐Ÿ‘ป

& Happy Halloween! 

Will you be attending my party? 

I already received notice that my best friends are coming; Michael๐Ÿ”ชMyers, Freddie⚰️Krugar, Candy๐ŸญMan, Pennywise๐Ÿคก, Pinhead๐Ÿ’‰, Jason๐Ÿ—ก️Voorhees, Norman๐Ÿ”ชBates ๐Ÿ›€and Sweet✂️Chucky. Should be a blast.

Monday, 28 September 2026

๐Ÿ‚๐Ÿš️I need to move

To newmarket or somewhere, I can't do a house; or any house anymore, i need neighbors; a gay community, a senior community, shopping, dentist, doctors, cafe, a night life, some kind of park nearby, but i need people now.

A gay community somewhere, but i need to play my music, and i need at least a porch.

I want a big one floor place with space up the wahoo, with no narrowness anywhere, only big and roomy for a single DJ DANCER HAIRDRESSER ARTIST KARAOKE AND MUSICIAN GAY OLD MAN WITH NO FRIENDS, BUT WELCOMING EVERYONE TO MY MISERABLE EXISTENCE.
 
No more house for me, those days are gone.
So let me know what you find and i'll let you know vice versa.

   ๐ŸŒ”
๐Ÿ‚๐Ÿš️

Friday, 18 September 2026

It's nuts, ๐Ÿฅœ๐Ÿฅœ๐Ÿฅœit's everywhere.

As a HSP of Empathic Value, those who are not socially aware of social etiquette and communication, body language, kindness and acceptance (to say the least without sounding like a narcissist), yet have a job meeting customers, give my heart a hard time in life. 


They're meeting a customer at their house at their door (Me with my delivery); and this customer is loving and giving, and wanting to give them some joy for 1 minute by tipping them in the way of a drink and a snack at the door, but they turn into a border wall of "OMG NO IT'S TOO MUCH", they ruin my day.


However, I WILL NEVER EXPECT RECIPROCAL KINDNESS FROM ANYONE. I appreciate their hard word while having hard working conditions, so I DON'T let them know how rude they're being, cause I know they don't want to impose. 


But imposing is done by you, not me, I'm giving, you must accept my giving when you see it's beautiful. If not, you hurt me while I try to be kind AS I WAS FEELING DOWN AND OUT TO BEGIN WITH, and then I turn fake right In front of you.


People who express or show aspects of their narcissism to me, make me fake. I am protecting my poor emotional vulnerable self while trying to still heal, I'M NOT Fake, not to one person or more than one, I've never been and never will be.


It's what you do when you have a career or job, you must be fake, it's sickening. The pretending, the toxic positivity, the kissing of asses, the fake smiling, the omission of truth and facts, the "keeping it professional", THE APATHY, the secrets i'll never hear about, and the exclusion of anyone like me. iT'S ALL SICKENING TO ME.


I'm not fake, but I play it very well, to hide my anger, my disgust, my words of wisdom gone unappreciated and over their heads, and my emotional fragility. I'm not fake, they are, pretending to like me, pretending to care about me, pretending there's nothing to worry about,, with anything, not to mention their own intentions with me.  


I just need to stay away from people like that, but ya can't.. It's nuts, ๐Ÿฅœ๐Ÿฅœ๐Ÿฅœit's everywhere. You can't because they deliver your food, or your products, or they're workmen, handymen, business men, employees, or worse biological family members. And you have to be like them, for them to be liking you. Thank god I'm not like any of them.


omg I can't handle it anymore.

Wednesday, 16 September 2026

๐Ÿ•Š˖ ݁♬⋆.˚๐„ž โ„‘๐”ฃ โ„‘ ๐”ด๐”ž๐”ฐ ๐”ฑ๐”ฌ ๐”ก๐”ฆ๐”ข ๐”ฑ๐”ฌ๐”ก๐”ž๐”ถ,⋆.˚๐„ž❣๐ŸŒŸ๐Ÿ•Š

 โ„‘๐”ฃ โ„‘ ๐”ด๐”ž๐”ฐ ๐”ฑ๐”ฌ ๐”ก๐”ฆ๐”ข ๐”ฑ๐”ฌ๐”ก๐”ž๐”ถ, 

โ„‘'๐”ก ๐”Ÿ๐”ข ๐”ฅ๐”ž๐”ญ๐”ญ๐”ถ ๐”ž๐”ซ๐”ก ๐”ฃ๐”ฒ๐”ฉ๐”ฉ ๐”ฌ๐”ฃ ๐”ญ๐”ฏ๐”ฆ๐”ก๐”ข ๐”ด๐”ž๐”ฑ๐” ๐”ฅ๐”ฆ๐”ซ๐”ค ๐”ฑ๐”ฅ๐”ฆ๐”ฐ, 

๐”ช๐”ถ ๐”ฑ๐”ฅ๐”ฌ๐”ฒ๐”ค๐”ฅ๐”ฑ๐”ฐ ๐”ด๐”ฌ๐”ฒ๐”ฉ๐”ก ๐” ๐”ฌ๐”ฉ๐”ฉ๐”ฆ๐”ก๐”ข, ๐”ด๐”ฆ๐”ฑ๐”ฅ ๐”ซ๐”ฌ๐”ฑ๐”ฅ๐”ฆ๐”ซ๐”ค ๐”ฑ๐”ฌ ๐”ช๐”ฆ๐”ฐ๐”ฐ.

๐”—๐”ฅ๐”ฆ๐”ฐ,, ๐”ฆ๐”ฐ ๐”ฃ๐”ฌ๐”ฏ ๐”‚๐Ÿซต๐“พ ˖ ݁♬⋆.˚๐„ž

                                        ⋆.˚๐„ž❣๐ŸŒŸ
⠀⠀⠀⠀  ⠀⠀⠀♡⣤⢔⣒⠂⣀⣀⣤⣄⣀๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿซถ๐Ÿ•Š
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀   ⣴⣿⠋⢠⣟⡼⣷⠼⣆⣼⢇⣿⣄⠱⣄๐Ÿ’–✨
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠹⣿⡀⣆⠙⠢⠐⠉⠉⣴⣾⣽⢟⡰⠃๐Ÿซถ
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⢿⣿⣦๐Ÿ’Ž๐Ÿ‘Œ⣿⠿⢋⣴⡏๐ŸŒฟ๐ŸŽต๐ŸŽถ
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢸⡙⠻⣿⣶⣦⣭⣉⠁⣿⠀๐Ÿ’–✨⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣷๐Ÿ⠉⠉⠉⠉⠇⡟⠀๐Ÿซถ⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀   ♡⠀⣘⣦⣀  ✨⣀⡴๐ŸŽต ✨⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀         ⠛˖ ݁♬⋆.˚ ๐„ž⠻⣧๐Ÿ’–⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⠫⣿♡⠻⣇⠘⠓⠂⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀  ⣿๐ŸŒฟ๐ŸŽต๐ŸŽถ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⢶๐Ÿ⣿⣿⣿⣿⣶⣄˚    ⣿⠀๐Ÿซถ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠹⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣧⢸⣿๐Ÿ’–✨  ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠈⠙⠻⢿⣿⣿⠿⠛♡⡇เฆ”ৣ꧂˚⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠘⣿⡇๐ŸŒŸ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀๐Ÿฆ‹⣿⡁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀˚  ⣿⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣿เฆ”ৣ꧂˚⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣧๐„ž✨⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢹⣷⠂⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢸⣿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢸⣿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀       ⠸๐„ž๐Ÿฅฐ.˚->>>♡ . ༘݁i
                                                         ⋆๐“๐‘œ๐“‹๐‘’ ♡
                                                              u๐–ฆน.✧˚==------>

Monday, 10 August 2026

(˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ )ใฅ♡โ„‘'๐”ณ๐”ข ๐”ซ๐”ข๐”ณ๐”ข๐”ฏ ๐” ๐”ฏ๐”ฆ๐”ข๐”ก ๐”ž๐”ฐ ๐”ช๐”ฒ๐” ๐”ฅ

       โ„‘'๐”ณ๐”ข ๐”ซ๐”ข๐”ณ๐”ข๐”ฏ ๐” ๐”ฏ๐”ฆ๐”ข๐”ก ๐”ž๐”ฐ ๐”ช๐”ฒ๐” ๐”ฅ ๐”ž๐”ฐ โ„‘ ๐”ฅ๐”ž๐”ณ๐”ข ๐”ด๐”ฆ๐”ฑ๐”ฅ ๐”ฃ๐”ฌ๐”ฏ๐”ข๐”ณ๐”ข๐”ฏ ๐”ฃ๐”ž๐”ฉ๐”ฉ๐”ฆ๐”ซ๐”ค ๐”ฑ๐”ข๐”ž๐”ฏ๐”ฐ, ๐”ฑ๐”ฅ๐”ข๐”ซ โ„‘ ๐”ฅ๐”ž๐”ณ๐”ข ๐”ฆ๐”ซ ๐”ฑ๐”ฅ๐”ข ๐”ญ๐”ž๐”ฐ๐”ฑ 8 ๐”ถ๐”ข๐”ž๐”ฏ๐”ฐ. ๐”„๐”ฑ ๐”ฑ๐”ฅ๐”ฆ๐”ฐ ๐”ญ๐”ฌ๐”ฆ๐”ซ๐”ฑ โ„‘'๐”ช ๐”ž ๐”ฃ๐”ž๐”ฉ๐”ฉ๐”ข๐”ซ ๐”ฐ๐”ฅ๐”ž๐”ก๐”ฌ๐”ด ๐”ฌ๐”ฃ ๐”ช๐”ถ ๐”ฃ๐”ฌ๐”ฏ๐”ช๐”ข๐”ฏ ๐”ฐ๐”ข๐”ฉ๐”ฃ.   

       ๐”˜๐”ซ๐”ฅ๐”ž๐”ญ๐”ญ๐”ถ ๐”ซ๐”ฌ ๐”ช๐”ž๐”ฑ๐”ฑ๐”ข๐”ฏ ๐”ด๐”ฅ๐”ž๐”ฑ ๐”ถ๐”ฌ๐”ฒ ๐”ฐ๐”ž๐”ถ, ๐”ž๐”ซ๐”ก ๐”ฑ๐”ฅ๐”ฆ๐”ฐ ๐”ฆ๐”ฐ ๐”ช๐”ถ ๐”ฉ๐”ฆ๐”ฃ๐”ข, ๐”ฆ๐”ฃ ๐”ถ๐”ฌ๐”ฒ ๐” ๐”ž๐”ซ ๐” ๐”ž๐”ฉ๐”ฉ ๐”ฆ๐”ฑ ๐”ฑ๐”ฅ๐”ž๐”ฑ ๐”ด๐”ฅ๐”ข๐”ซ ๐”ฆ๐”ฑ'๐”ฐ ๐”ฑ๐”ฅ๐”ฆ๐”ฐ ๐”ด๐”ž๐”ถ. ๐”‰๐”ฆ๐”ซ๐”ž๐”ฉ "โ„ญ๐”ฅ๐”ž๐”ซ๐”ค๐”ข ๐”ฃ๐”ฌ๐”ฏ ๐”ฑ๐”ฅ๐”ข ๐”ค๐”ฌ๐”ฌ๐”ก" ๐”ฆ๐”ฐ ๐” ๐”ฌ๐”ช๐”ฆ๐”ซ๐”ค, โ„‘ ๐”ง๐”ฒ๐”ฐ๐”ฑ ๐”ก๐”ฌ๐”ซ'๐”ฑ ๐”จ๐”ซ๐”ฌ๐”ด ๐”ด๐”ฅ๐”ข๐”ซ, ๐”Ÿ๐”ฒ๐”ฑ ๐”ฑ๐”ฅ๐”ข๐”ซ ๐”ช๐”ž๐”ถ๐”Ÿ๐”ข โ„‘ ๐” ๐”ž๐”ซ ๐”ฉ๐”ฆ๐”ณ๐”ข ๐”ฐ๐”ฌ๐”ช๐”ข ๐”ฐ๐”ฌ๐”ฏ๐”ฑ ๐”ฌ๐”ฃ ๐”ฉ๐”ฆ๐”ฃ๐”ข, ๐”ž๐”ค๐”ž๐”ฆ๐”ซ. 

Friday, 10 July 2026

๐•Š๐•–๐•”๐•ฃ๐•–๐•ฅ ๐•Š๐•œ๐•š๐•๐• ๐•ฅ๐•  ๐•Š๐•ก๐• ๐•ฅ ๐”ป๐•’๐•Ÿ๐•˜๐•–๐•ฃ๐• ๐•ฆ๐•ค ๐•„๐•–๐•Ÿ

๐•‹๐•™๐•– ๐•Š๐•–๐•”๐•ฃ๐•–๐•ฅ ๐•Š๐•œ๐•š๐•๐• ๐•ฅ๐•  ๐•Š๐•ก๐• ๐•ฅ ๐”ป๐•’๐•Ÿ๐•˜๐•–๐•ฃ๐• ๐•ฆ๐•ค ๐•„๐•–๐•Ÿ ๐• ๐•Ÿ ๐”ป๐•’๐•ฅ๐•š๐•Ÿ๐•˜ ๐”ธ๐•ก๐•ก๐•ค / ๐•‚๐•–๐•ฃ๐•ฃ๐•ช ๐•„๐•”๐”ธ๐•ง๐• ๐•ช, โ„™๐•™๐”ป ๐•‚๐•–๐•ฃ๐•ฃ๐•ช ๐•„๐•”๐”ธ๐•ง๐• ๐•ช, โ„™๐•™๐”ป